Waiting for my crazy daughter to go to sleep. She is such a night owl. But very good news since Sunday going to the "scary" bathroom all by herself. This is awesome for me less times I have to keep going to the bathroom with her. She is getting so big so fast. The girl is in love with a show called Yo Gabba Gabba and today she watched a new episode "Dance" and she was so cute trying to do all the dances on there she had me laughing. Those big beautiful eyes makes me into such a softy.

When ever daddy is not around she has to tell everyone that "Daddy is working" it is the cutest thing. I have no idea why she thinks that daddy would be working at all these crazy hours but I can't tell her otherwise. She had a few hours on Saturday to spend with her aunt and she drove her crazy. Only after 4-1/2 hrs she wanted me to take her home. Just that morning she bought a change purse purse with Tinker Bell on it and she had to have money in it. The problem with that is she likes to shake it and on the sides the pennies had space to fall out. So every couple of minutes Maria had to wait for my slow poke to pick the pennies up. By the end of the day she had quarters in the change purse.

My big man went camping the day after Thanksgiving (with a few family members) which left all alone. I know that I had my little girl but i really missed my big man. I would text him through out the weekend but all he would give me was one word texts. I wanted to strangle him because I missed him. Well when I did finally get to see him he was so grumpy and tired. The next day he was better than I was able to talk to him. Well that is when I noticed all these bruises on his body. He said that while they where camping that he was able to do what ever he wanted. (So lucky I was not there) Well he was riding a bike into the woods in the dark and flew off his knee black and blued he has a gash on his hand and he has a cut on his face. I would of freaked out if I was there thinking he broke something but he said that he had so much fun. He told me it was like he was flying because he flew so far in the air. I have to rethink in the future if I will be letting him go camping without me again.

As for me I am so tired of not knowing what is going on in my life. I know the day by day things but where is my life leading. I don't want to end up alone. Can a person love someone fully after being hurt for so long? I have to come up with that answer soon I can't keep leaving someone in the clouds because I am uncertain. I don't want to feel rushed because I don't want to make the wrong choices. Well that will be something that I get back to in a later time also.