It is Friday YIPEEEE....I have picked up my niece today who I love dearly. I get to have her all weekend next week. Natasia is growing so fast. I can't believe sometimes that she is already 12 I am not ready to get in a car with her. She can drive in 2-1/2 yrs and I am scared.
Wednesday, June 13, 2012
Me talking to myself "I have issues" lol
No point to state the obvious.....
Since I have been on last not much has changed. I have had lots of ups and downs. This year I will be turning 32 and I feel like I I have not accomplished much....I need a hobby/I want a hobby..hmmmm....what am I good at lets see
- Im pretty damn good at my job but I cant turn that into a hobby
- I know I am an awesome mother but kids are getting older and they no longer need mommy so no hobby there unless I start to smother them they would hate me
- I think I am pretty good at watching TV and sleeping...Nope still no hobby
- I like to bake but that can get expensive but that can still be an option (Yeah I might be getting somewhere)
- I like to dance maybe I can look up a dance class (wait I have they are expensive) but that can still be an option keep looking until you you find one in your means
- stillllll......thinking.....that is all I can muster up....I have to know more things
Well that is my first problem I have a mental block but why....I need some friends but sometimes friends can cause problems...Why are you so neg? I know I stop myself all the time from being happy Why? I know only I can answer that but i just wish someone else could do that for me.....I'm so tired mentally I need to come out of this rut.
I have been there before and it is an ugly road but the difference is this time I know I am having a problem.....Think of good things ok here we go
- over all I am in good health
- I have 2 amazing children
- A sister I love more than my ownself and a brother that I would give my life up for if he ever needed me to
- lots of nieces and nephews that love me and are so much fun to be around
As I am should be trying to better myself I am thinking about funny crap my daughter says
Kylee: mommy I don't want to go to school
Mommy: whats the problem now?
Kylee: Because I have learned all that I need to
Mommy: (laughing inside) but saying Kylee everyday you are getting older and you will need to learn new things.
Kylee: thinking for a second....mommy my tummy hurts (this is just another ploy to not have to go to school)
Mommy: ok maybe you have to fart?
Kylee: No
Mommy: maybe you are hungry?
Kykee: No
Mommy: ok you can take your bubble gum pepto
Kykee: No they taste Nasty
Mommy: well than I cant do anything for you but you are still going to school
Kylee: now with fake tears starting.....arms are folded...she says you are such a mean mommy
Mommy: Really!
Kylee: but I still love you
Mommy: Love you to Kylee XOXOXO
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